Sun Up!

Today I felt much better. I'm realising that I'm growing up too fast and that I should just take a breather and enjoy being a teenager instead of wishing to be a young adult.
Sigh, I wish I had friends my age whom I can hang-out with. Thats another reason why I was desperately wanting to grow up.

It's hard at times to be true to yourself because you know that certain things that you like are flagged off by others as "childish" or "lame". But hey, so what? If I like it, then I like it la! Why measure up to other people's standards?

Plus, I've been having a hard time on believing what the word of God says about me instead of internalizing my own thoughts. Cause my thoughts can be really self-destructing at times (sometimes all the time). I've taken the step to meditate on one scripture a day. (and that reminds me, I've gotta finish memorising Psalm 103:1-5 before we kena from Unc. Nie tomorrow! oopsie...)

During my getaway last week, I drew up a mind map of my abilities and interests and how I can expand them. Ideas started flowing like a waterfall racing down into the river. After that, I felt really relieved and I'm going to apply whatever I wrote.

Feels good to be happy. And fulfilled.

Elmo always makes me happy! :-)

Broken

"Bright are the stars that shine, dark is the sky..."

The best thing to do when you're sad (besides talking to God), is to just remain silent. Cause when you open your mouth, all that comes out is negativity.

I realised that I've been given a chance to live my preteen years. The years when I wished to be 16 at that time, only to ask myself if I'm happy or not after getting what I wanted. Right now, I'm wishing that I was 22. *slaps face*

I'm pretending to be someone else. I lost my sense of identity.




"Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God; for I shall yet praise him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my God.."
Psalm 42:11

Cynthia!

I found this picture of Cynthia so cute!
btw, this photo ain't mine. I stole it from U Wyno.
(sighs...)

A journey in time

Cruising down memory lane, back when I was 15 and 16. The greatest times of my life!
(gosh, I speak as though I'm 80 already! Maybe I am)
Here were the things I liked:


Prawn Mee was my absolute favourite back then (before I came to Selayang and discovered Pan Mee!). Everytime I'd be craving for it, so much so that my mom asked me if I was pregnant! The best one I've ever tasted was in Penang.

My BESTBESTBEST friends who were with me for three years and then we split in Form Four because we were sent to different classes. L-R: Neermala, Durkeshini, Luveeniya, Me, Sri Vithia.

These were the moments that I wasn't a loner. When I was given a chance to have best friends.

The Cheetah Girls, the only kind of music I listened to. Plus, I read their books. Their vocals were excellent seriously! And their dance moves were awesome. I also loved their BFF spirit, it always left a hope that one day, I'll find my own group of cheetahlicious girls! (sighh...girly dreams...)

This is my favourite song:




AND..... (majortriplequadruple sighhhh...)

I had this huge crush on Lucas Grabeel! He was the first thing on my mind when I woke up and the last thing when I slept. Everytime I saw him on TV, my heart danced.

Gosh, now when I think back, I wonder how all this was possible? Crushing heavily on something you don't know. I guess thats why they call it a CRUSH!

(honestly, when I look at him, I still smile. but my heart beats for another... *wink*)

Long walks. I loved walking by the school field alone and think. I had a lot of things going on and watching the green grass and smelling the fresh air was a way for me to let go. Most of my stories came from these walks...



I was addicted to "The Clique" series ( blame it on Tracy!). I kept reading and reading cause i found it so awesome at that time. This is Book One to Book Six. Until now, I still pick it up and read when I'm in the mood for something catty, nonsensical and rich ;-)

JANE AUSTEN. Need I explain more?? ( love you to death...)

Aly and AJ. The other kind of music that I loved. Too bad I couldn't find their albums in Malaysia. I had to download their songs. But I loved their movies and music videos. Once I was highly addicted to "Phil of The Future", a sitcom in Disney Channel that Aly Michalka (right) was acting in (and was having a major crush on Ricky Ullman as well!).

Noticed that none of the above had any elements of God or reading the Bible?

This was my life. Pop culture, glitter, perishable things.

Yet, I didn't regret because I think that the past shapes us for the future.

Now I have a greater hunger for God and not these things. Growing up, my interests have changed. And I'm happy.

Until I learn to long for something unperishable, I will not get what I want.

Broken Soul

Bless the Broken Door - Rascal Flatts


"Lose My Soul" - Toby Mac


Songs that keep me going
:)

FRESH MILK

I think I'm growing up too fast. I expect to be treated as though I'm 2 years older when in actual fact, I will only be 18 next month. I'm going to start afresh and I will change.
Sometimes I forget how to have fun. When the blessing comes, I hesitate.

=D

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending," - Maria Robinson.

Dear God, give me the strength to change the things that I can change and the courage to accept my weaknesses and allow You to work the change in me.

Apple pie

My classic apple pie :)

So the kitchen strikes again.

Baking is an art. Thats all I can say.

Some enjoy it, and there are some who don't.

Baking helps me feel better. Its therapeutic, especially when you cream and fold using your hands and the wooden spoon instead of the machine. Call me old-fashioned, but I bake the old-fashioned way.

At least for once, in this past two weeks of brokenness and distress, I actually feel happy.

:-)

Turning Point

Picking up the pieces
A process of pruning, which will be expected for the coming years (maybe more)
Will be strong and truly believe God's word and not anything else. Even myself!

Carissa Morais will deny herself and take up her cross.
Its not going to be easy. I can expect breakdowns, tears and the lonely wilderness.
In the end, I will emerge strong.

A good work is taking place in me.
Will learn to see the big picture.
And with God's grace and help, to shun the lies of the enemy.

Still under construction.
MAJOR MAJOR CONSTRUCTION.
God is good, all the time.


:D

Guess who?

Guess who decided to drop a surprise in our house again?
Miss Mommy Tiger who gave birth in our house last December, and now she's back with 4 kittens! (2 tigers and 2 blacks).
My mom was not too happy about it seeing that this is the third time our house was used as a gynaecology ward for cats. I wonder why our house is so prone to pregnant cats.

In my case, I was overjoyed with the new arrivals (me being a cat lover and all) though I'm pretty sure that my mom is going to get rid of them sooner or later.



I don't know if you can see properly (thanks to my "high-tech" handphone) but there's four of them altogether, pilled up on top of each other to keep warm. Gosh, I just love cats and kittens!!
The other tiger is squashed underneath the three.

I'll take better pictures later on once I search for my digital camera which is probably lying somewhere around the house, taking a shower or chilling out in my sister's room.

I can't wait to own a fat, orange-and white cat with a long tail one day when I'm on my own!

;-D

What a Friend we have in Jesus

What a friend I've found in You
When you bore my sins
So that I may live forever
And that You have set me free

Everyday I look forward to spending time with You
I want to get to know You more
To learn about You
And let You speak to me

My heart delights in Your word, O Lord
The one and only, the living word
Thank You for setting me free
Thank You for maturing me

You saw my tears, my hurt
And comforted me
You gave me hope to move on
And to find myself in You

I belong to You and no one else
Only You can make me complete
Because You give me real, true life
Oh how I love You, Lord

Thank You, Jesus
For all that You've done for me
Thank You for being faithful
Even when I broke Your heart

I look forward to this journey
Where You and I can walk this road together
A road of maturity and discovery
O what a friend You are to me

I never knew
That I could find a friend so true
Thank You, my dear Friend
For choosing me

In thanksgiving

Lord, where do I go from here?

So now, I'm in college. I'm learning to take responsibility for my life and I'm learning to rely on God and trust Him. I've commited myself to being cleansed and sanctified everyday and set aside time to sit at His feet and hear what God has to teach me on a day to day basis.

I am challenged with a question: Will I die for Christ when the time eventually comes?

Have I really, really given my life to Christ? Do I actually mean it when I meditate on Philippians 3: 8..."and count them as rubbish that I may gain Christ?"

Lots of thoughts to ponder on, so much so that today my mind was on a verge of a breakdown and I was really not in the mood for church. Just before worship, I sat on my seat and told God "I don't care how I feel, I just choose to worship You because You are worthy to be praised..."
Then I was OK.

I need to rearrange my life, my thoughts and what I truly believe in. This phase is a transitional phase and I have to keep focused on God so that I will not lose my footing. Its very hard for me not to fall in emo-ness and negative thinking cause I'm very prone to that.

Maturity is a process. Sometimes some are born with it, then there are others who discover it.
For me, I'm in the process of discovering it.
I feel happy. There are just so many things in life to be thankful for


"Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,And into His courts with praise.
Be thankful to Him, and bless His name.
For the LORD is good;His mercy is everlasting,
And His truth endures to all generations.."
- Psalm 100:4-5, NKJV-

Dear Jane

Dear Jane,

The one reason that compels me to become a mother one day is how children can make me smile despite the negative feelings inside me. Today in church, I had the opportunity to keep Cynthia with me almost the whole time. As she slept in my arms throughout the service and laid her head on my chest, I felt a tinge of motherly love. How you carefully shift your position so that her head is placed properly, how you check from time to time to see if she's comfortable and not having difficulty breathing, how your body aches with the weight of a toddler on you but you just don't care because all you want to see is her satisfied face while she's deep in dreamland. How you immediately rush to her aid when you feel her stir in her sleep and the pressure she exerts on your body because she's not comfortable.

Her heartbeat was so steady as she slept in my arms throughout the service, how I could feel her breathing on me as her tiny body moved up and down on me. I didn't want to let go. When the others came, I had to reluctantly pass her on once she was wide awake and ready to play.

She made me feel better today just by letting me look after her and do her mom a favour.

One day, I want to become a mother. To carry a baby in my arms -that came from me- and raise her/him up together with my husband. In this modern era, so many view motherhood as

"robbing the joys of a woman", but in my opinion, motherhood is the best gift God can give to a woman, despite the numerous times when she has to lay down her life for her children.

Oh how I wait for the day when I have Shoshana in my arms...

18.11.2010, 3.50 pm.

Taken from "Dear Jane and other stories."

Slurring in boredom

Today was a great day and I thank God for it.
Wasn't what I expected -- it was even better!

I have to improve on my piano. My Waltz is squeezing the life out of me, my Rondo is in a bad state cause my fingers are short for the numerous octaves. And oh how I'm detesting the jazz waltz piece! Sighhh...

Cessa, get your gun! Its time to shoot some hardwork into your system! hahahaha...

Life is good. Its such a relief that the "wilderness" period is over. I've not been in a good state for so many months and its been weary because so much of mental energy was being used up. God is great!

I've really got nothing to blog about so I'm just typing away whatever that comes to my mind.

I never really expected myself to be good with children. I always thought children didn't like me. Now I know the major lie that I told myself. It was the experience working with Yayasan that broke that lie. And today was a good babysitting day :-)

I'm rearranging my life. It needs some more cleaning up.

Its been TWO WEEKS since I had pan mee and I'm having withdrawal symptoms. My college buddies are so sick of me drooning about panmeepanmeepanmeepanmee....

I'm in the moood for something sweet but I know my mom is hiding the Cadbury Black Forest chocolate from me cause she knows its my FAVOUUURRIITEE and that I might just finish the entire bar.

I'm so boring. You might as well NOT read my blog now cause I'm just slurring in boredom

:D

Second Chance

Captain Wentworth's letter to Anne Elliot.

"Persuasion" by Jane Austen.

"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago.

Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes?

I had not waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature!

You do us justice, indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating.

"I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never."

F.W.

-"Persuasion", Chapter 23-

I think I've memorized the entire letter!

:)

The Ordeal

As much as there's joy and happiness
Sadness still has a place in my heart
There are days when I just want to rebel
"Its so unfair!!", my heart screams.
And all I want to do is just float in a puddle of tears

The happy memories keep me going
My hopes and prayers drive me further
Yet I immediately jam the brakes
When I ask myself
"Why now? Why must this happen??"

For days I've carried unforgiveness and hurt
And a silent but deep anger as well
To the cause of this
In my mind, God tells me,
"Let go, my dear, let go of the poison..."

So I obeyed and decided to let go
O what a release in my spiritual life!
My heart feels lighter
When I see the cause of the issue
I don't feel the stab in my stomach

Dear God, this is so hard.
I'm trying desperately.
I'm on the verge of giving up.
But in my heart, I know this is temporary
That one day, the pretty bluebird will fly back to my window

Right now, life is so exciting!
What with college being so fun and amazing
Yet deep inside, I long for at least a slice of watermelon
To cool down the burning sensation within
A sweet juice to put a smile on my face

In Anne Elliot's shoes I walk
Feeling her worn-out soles
And the rhythm of her dainty steps
Hoping that one day
She will be given a second chance

So I shall wait and wait
For the knock on my front door
For two pens to bring the book back to life
With a smile from above
And a sigh of approval.

Radiance of Colour

Today there is this unexplainable joy in my heart. Suddenly, the atmosphere is full of colour and such a bright radiance. There's so many things to be thankful for, don't you think?

I'm really loving college life. Its awesome. Everyday is an adventure, everyday I'm making new friends. Learning something new and observing people (my favourite past time, as well =D )

My journey with the Lord is getting deeper. Everyday I look forward to quiet time. When I reach home, all I want to do is have a nice bath and sit at His feet, expecting to learn something new from Him. I talk to Him everyday. Its so funny how I used to think that prayer was such a bore and reading the Word was much better, but now I love BOTH prayer and the Word.

I'm learning to see things in a new light. I'm learning to accept myself. The scripture that striked me most about accepting myself as a unique creature was Psalm 33:15(NKJV) , "He fashions their hearts individually..."
Its a long journey and I'm prepared for the times when I'll feel low about myself and will need God to intervene. The battle is the Lord's.


For the deep loss that I'm still mourning, God will heal. In His time, it will be beautiful. So beautiful that every moment will count and that He will be the building block of this new chapter in life that will eventually come when the time is right and when both hearts are ready to receive from Him.


Life is great. Though we fall, God is there to pick us up and guess what? We move on with Him, a journey where no man (or woman) can ever fullfil.

Where art thou, my lover?

Finally! A poem after so long =D

Where art thou, my lover?
I searched for thee but to no avail
O how deep this longing be
A spark in a puddle of fire
Thy brown eyes gleaming
In my memory's eye
Thy crimson lips forming a smile
Bursting forth from my heart
O how I long for thy loving embrace
Thy arms around me
Two hearts beating rapidly

Where art thou, my lover?
Standing afar off
Watching me with an immaculate smile
Where art thou, my dreamer?
O how I love thee
To the innermost corners of my heart
Where art thou, my lover?


11/4/2010, 8.15 pm

Hit Pause!

I want to be a better person.
I want to learn more about myself.
I want to discover my interests.
I want to find my identity in Christ.
I want to be passionate for a cause.
I want to be useful.
I want to learn.
I want to hunger for something more than life itself.
I want to be aware of what's happening in the world around me.
I want to comtribute and invest in others.

Sometimes I think I'm so useless. I don't have anything to be interested about. All I care about are petty little things, perishable things.


Is there any knowledge in my head? I constantly ask myself. Am I resourceful, useful?
Am I living my life in a way that is pleasing God? Am I a hypocrite? Saying one thing and doing something else?
Am I worth spending time with?
Am I giving to others? Do I truly, truly mean it when I say "I love you, Lord"?


"Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting"
- Psalm 139: 23-24 -

Under Construction

Its been a hard day's night.
Especially today when I had to take public transport back home and ended up being squashed in the KTM during rush hour. Reached home at 6.40 pm.
If it wasn't for the Matr!cs meeting, I would have made it home earlier (did I mention that I got accepted into student council's "HMC LEADS" ???)

Sigh, last night's prayer turned into travail. After 30 mins, I was so exhausted. My eyes were swollen and my pillow and mattress was soaked wet. Its a good thing I didn't wake my parents with all the deep groanings and tearful prayers. I had a slight sore throat after that.

Besides having my time with the Lord, 60s music has been keeping me company. Although I'm more of a fan of "The Beach Boys", I've been expanding my range to "The Kinks" and of course, "The Beatles" as well. If I had a CD player, I would definately pop in my "Simon and Garfunkel" CD that was given to me for my birthday last year ;-)

Just by watching old episodes of American Dreams Season 1, I've learnt some dance moves. They're so easy to learn cause all you do is just observe and then practice it during your free time. The songs that I love to dance to is "I Saw Her Standing There" by The Beatles and "All Day and All of The Night" by The Kinks.

I'm learning to be happy with myself. Though I'm quite a loner, I'm trying my best to be more outgoing and college has been teaching me that. I'm quite happy being a silent observer, though I do try to make an effort to talk (cause when I start, I can't stop). Sigh, life is so quiet now....

I can't wait for the weekends, cause even if I can't talk to you, at least I can still see you and smile at you. Although our talking time might be limited, but just to manage a few sentences is an achievement. Its better a few words than none at all...

Cessa is learning to be strong through tough times. Cessa is currently meditating on:

"And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope"
Romans 5:3-4 (NKJV)

There is no word or book as true as God's word. Don't you agree?

By the time this "tribulation" is over, I will be a better person, more matured and have a good character.

So, now I am "UNDER CONSTRUCTION".

sigh, i miss you so much =)

Swinging 60s

My love for the 60s is returning! Although "American Dreams" has finished airing on TV, the passion burns and lives on :)



My current favourite :)
( after "Help me, Rhonda" of course )





My favourite episode on American Dreams where THE KINKS WERE FEATURED!!!!!!! *screams and jumps up for joy!* of course its not them la, its the song that rocks
"Girl, I wanna be with you...."

I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED THIS EPISODE!!!! The Beatles were featured.
HOW COULD I?????
Sigh.



Long live the 60s! *high five to whoever fond of the 60s*

Hope Rising above the Shattered

Beneath the silence, my heart groans
Deep down, it kills
A smile on the surface but
brokenness lies below
So many questions,
I need an answer.

I know you hurt as much as me
Its ok dear, God is here for us
Everyday brings us one step closer
Everyday our friendship begins to heal
One day it'll all be better
One day the sun will smile

For now, I'll keep hoping
Remembering our beautiful memories
Dreaming about what lies ahead for us
Not forgetting to enjoy the present as well
Yearning for you to smile
Anticipating a word from you

Our book has buried itself in the grave
I will never open it until the time is right
For now, our psalms lay dormant
Our poems and prayers lay silent
Until that day
When our pens bring it back to life

Everyday I fall deeply in love
To the heart that drew itself to me
To the character that first captured me
Though you're far away
It'll never die
Though silent, it'll keep burning


Fret not my beloved friend
It'll be all over
Before you know it
We'll be back into endless chatter
Singing our favourite songs
And fighting in the kitchen

Though long is the time we must wait
At least the silence disappears
After a stormy night
The sun never cease to rise
Whatever comes our way
We'll see it through together

Morning Reflections...

During my quiet time, I was pondering about issues close to my heart. What we feel mostly about, we should be silent until we first talk them through with God. He gives the release and the peace that rules our hearts, and perhaps some kind of solution.

Things I can learn during this time of silence and distance:

• Being a virtuous woman - Proverbs 31:10-31
• Depending fully on God and relying on His strength - 2 Corinthians 12:7-10
• Self-acceptance - Psalm 139:14-15
• Submission to God as well as others above me - Ephesians 6:1-3, 1 Tim 2:11
• Silent humility - Philippians 2:1-8, Proverbs 29:23
• Patient waiting - 1 Corinthians 13:4a, Galatians 5:22
• Trusting and waiting on the Lord - Proverbs 3:5-6
• Learning from other matured Christian women about submission and managing a household - Titus 2:4-5
• Focusing on God's will for my life - Colossians 3:2, 1 Corinthians 7:17, 20
• Being a better friend to others - 1 John 3:16
• Loving my neighbour as myself - John 13:34-35.

In June, its going to be 3 and a half years left,

Everyday brings us one step closer to each other,

Just wait on the Lord.

Grieving souls

the pain hurts...
the silence kills...
i miss you so much...
you're just one click away and i can't talk to you...
:'(

i'm so sick trying not to show emotion...
pieces of my heart is tearing bit by bit...

thank you, God that You're always here...
thank you, God that You're watching over him...

Where would I be without You, Lord?

.....................God only knows what I'll be without you.

Rock bottom

Do you know what's the worst part of being 18 years old?
The constant battle between what's right and wrong. The constant battle of choosing to be immature or to be mature. The constant battle of battling with yourself.

Moments like this, I wish that I could bang my head against the wall till my skull cracks open and blood squirts out in a million directions. And let my body drag down to the ground and just rot. (i apologize for my gruesome description, i'm just too imaginative)


Then just before I think of doing such things, I remember that I have someone to hand in my burdens to. I have someone who has already paid the price. A price too high that no human can pay. I have a reason to live. I have a love that is eternal. So deep and true that He layed down His life for me. Do I deserve such love?

The answer is : Yes, I deserve this love.
Why? Because God loves me as much as He loves you. No matter how much you try to reason with yourself, the bottom line is that GOD LOVES YOU.

"There is no greater love than Yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if I search all the world,
I will never find a love like Yours..."
- "I Just Want You" , Planetshakers.


I've got lots to learn. I'm in the crossroads between what's right and wrong and what's mature and immature. The temptation to cross over to the dark side is great. The thought of doing my own things, going my own way, doing what I want is so great.
Yet the price He paid so that I could live is much greater. So much greater than my thoughts and emotions. So much greater than who I think I am.

Addison Leitch said, "When the will of God crosses the will of man, somebody has to die".
I know who that somebody is.
That somebody is me.

The best thing to do in crossroads? Surrender it all to God.

"Where would we (I) be without You, Jesus?
Where would we (I) be without You, Lord?"
- "Jesus Reigns", Planetshakers.


I MISS YOU SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS

In God's Time

It was 1.00 am in the cold night,
I've waited for an hour,
Pacing about anxiously,
Trapped in a whirpool of thoughts.
Beneath the wooden door,
I heard a few sniffles and more chatter.

Tired of pacing, I leaned against the wall
Opposite to where you were,
Wondering if you were alright,
Relieved that you could finally open up,
Glad that you got a chance when it seemed like you couldn't.

1.16 am,
You emerged out of the door,
Together with the pastor's smile,
You looked at me with your tear-strained eyes,
I sighed in relief.
You were okay.

You walked over to me with a smile,
And leaned next to me,
Whispering about the events behind closed doors,
I would have hugged you if no one was there,
Yet in my heart, I was so happy for you.

So we decided to have cereal,
I smiled brightly as I made it for you,
Thinking that I'd be replaying this scene one day
In a different setting, somewhere in the future.
You watched me with a smile,
For you also had that thought in your mind.

Once we settled in our seats,
We talked.
Gazing into your beautiful brown eyes,
I smiled as I listened to you.
My hands shivered in the cold, and immediately,
You cupped my hands into yours as I held the warm mug of cereal.

We recounted precious memories,
and enthusiastically talked about the future.
We have a long wait. A long, long wait.
Yet everyday brings us closer
To the gift that we will one day open.

Tenderly, I pushed your hair away from your eyes
And ran the back of my hand across your face,
Tracing your slight moustache with my finger,
Watching you as you sipped the cereal carefully
After first, feeding it to me.

For a moment or two,
Our gaze locked.
My heart turned over as I contemplated
Who you are as a person,
Your character that drew me to you.


We clasped our hands, out of love
and away from the cold
What a beautiful night in the hills!
As the stars danced beneath the clouds
As the moon slept with a smile.

1.50 am,
The pastor's wife walked in,
Our hearts froze,
It was time to go,
She smiled at us, her kind eyes watching us,
As we finished the last bit and stood up to leave.


After we washed up,
We looked at each other to say good night,
As she watched us, still with a smile,
Waiting for us to leave,
Although you playfully walked over to me,
She held you back, still with her smile,
Eventually, you blew a kiss to me from across your room,
I smiled back at you, my stomach in backflips,
As she rolled her eyes and finally made us go into our respective rooms.

What a memorable night it was,
Just you and me,
And the cold hills of the morning,
A memory that will never fade
One that would last a lifetime,
Where no words could comprehend,
The night when we got a glimpse of the future.


And so the pastor's wife told me the next day,
"Last night was fun, wasn't it?
Well, more of it will come in the future"
She smiled and didn't hesitate to add,
"In God's Time".

Heads up!

Life has really been great.
Today I had an awesome day at college, especially in my IT class. We were assigned in groups to present our views on the question given to us. Our group was:

How does computer competencies and knowledge help us get ahead in today's market?


We had a good, laugh-out-loud presentation. Then after that, my friends and I went to play pool. Wow, Alwin and Kok How were just awesome! Alwin was teaching me how to hold the stick properly and Kok How was briefing me on strength and accuracy. The rest who joined us was Peter (also known as Leon), Sherri, Michael and Diana.

Everyday is a discovery. I made new friends. Amy, Damien Han, Jessica are some of them also.
Too bad their gonna reshuffle us AGAIN!

Oh well, at least Alwin, Sherri and I share the same Intermediate English class.

College life is getting more and more interesting.