Outcast

I wish that I didn't always have to feel left out all the time. That I could be part of the fun and thrills, I wish that people whom I thought I was close to (turns out that they're not) will also include me in their lives.

I feel like a passer-by.
Nothing.
Worthless.
Like a piece of tissue to blow your nose and then throw it away once you're done blowing your nose.
Its disgusting.
Its repulsive.

Am I of value to others?
I thought that I was welcomed, looks like I'm not.
I thought I was accepted, looks like I was wrong.
I thought I was finally fitting in, but looks like I'm the wrong puzzle.


Is there something wrong with me?
Am I such a turn-off?

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